Dear Lord

Dear God,
              It's me again sorry I haven't done the things you put me on this Earth to do,
sorry for the failures and all the promises I've never kept but this time I am in trouble
you see I feel this loss this hole, this empytiness, the aching feeling in my heart and it won't go away. Dear Lord I'd like to ask is my baby OK? he is growing in your garden? What about my friend I wasn't there for Stacy does she forgive me? What about the person I miss the most Wilf is he still looking out for me from Heaven or has he abandoned me? So many questions and no answers. Dear Lord I feel that you have forsaken me? I want to see the people I miss the most again to have the encouagement to carry on. I'm suppose to feel this light around me but all I feel is darkness and the cold forever burdens with the mistakes I've done and the mistakes of others. When my time finally does come will I be greeted or will I be shun away? These are the questions I'd like answered one day. Dear Lord