-- really, it does. secret number one, i guess.
-- i can't stand human interaction; yet i crave attention. constantly.
-- i fell in love with my best friend recently; then i pushed him away. now he hates me.
-- the only time i feel appreciated is when a man, or woman, is worshiping my body; i give myself away too freely in an attempt to find someone who truely appreciates what i'm giving them. but they never do.
-- sometimes i'll go a week without showering because i feel like a trashy whore & i don't deserve the purity & cleanliness.
-- sometimes i go to sleep hoping someone will sneak in my room and murder me.
-- i've always craved a terminal illness. or a natural disaster.
-- i am addicted to pain. even more so than i'm addicted to the drugs i smoke, snort, etc.
-- sometimes i do everything in my power to make the people that care about me, hate me, because i feel like it's the only "true" emotion & if they hate me, at least i can know for sure & never doubt it.
i'll add more tomorrow.
A contest entry
- Postsecret by SceneQueen.
550 points, ended April 1, 26 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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i dig it..its funny i could never tell someone my feelings, etc. ,etc..but writing them makes things easier huh...i dig it great write
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Wow. I relate.. with some things. But you stole my heart here.
-- sometimes i do everything in my power to make the people that care about me, hate me, because i feel like it's the only "true" emotion & if they hate me, at least i can know for sure & never doubt it.
This is me in a nutshell. Breaks my heart.. Amazing. Great and powerful write.
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Wow. The fact you can write your secrets like that are totally awesome. I can kinda relate. I love postsecret too! my friend introduced me to them and i'm addicted
"sometimes i'll go a week without showering because i feel like a trashy whore & i don't deserve the purity & cleanliness."
^^^I've done the same exact thing before.
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this is so honest, you're an amazing writer love
it's been too long since i've read your words, i'm sorry.
--i can't stand human interaction; yet i crave attention. constantly.
-- i've always craved a terminal illness.
^ me too.
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So raw, i loved it. Good luck and thanks
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totally fucking honest. I know how you mean. I too get turned on my postsecret. I too give away my body tooy easily, to just be pleased that someone is finally pleased with me. I also love pain and don't think I'm worthy of cleanliness and like making myself feel like a whore as I am a filthy one. The very last one is most true for me though... I do try to make people I love hate me, so I don't hurt them or so they don't have to put up with the likes of me. Alcohol & weed aids my self hate often.
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i really like your honesty. i know thats what postsecret is all about (and this contest, obviously), but i still admire you for it. and i can relate to many of these. <3
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thank you. it was really hard to admit some of those. i'll be adding to this until the contest is over, so if you wanna check back. feel free : )
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"i've always craved a terminal illness."
- me too.
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