And Then I Remember

" And Then I  Remember "

Sometimes I recall when I confessed my love
and remember the rejection that was my final blow
and the obnoxious things I tried to do
To keep you from feeling so very low

Then I remember who came into my life
with boyish looks and a wordy smile
who took to me like chocolate moose
and flew me through those many miles
to see him.

And then I recall when you shared your heart
when you confessed you cared
and that you didnt want to hurt me
...because you couldnt bare the thought.
of ever hurting me.

But you still did. I remember.
"Baby, I dont want you to be with Perry."


........
Sometimes I wonder if I could be as mean as you
if i could be  as heartless and vile and as cruel as you
and vomit those words that you threw so EFFORTLESSLY
...into my face.

I wanted to scream - as you continued...
-All about how you wished you had a girl
to cared about you the way I cared about him
-And all about how you wished you had a girl
that loved you and trusted you the way I did him

AND I remember the RAGE that I felt for you
AND the PAIN of the insult that was dealt THROUGH YOU
AND the STUPIDITY of your horrible statement

And I couldn't help
but wish I had a belt
that I could very well hang you with as payment

For Making Such A Selfish Statement.


And Now I cant recall how I felt about you
If-I-cared about you
And if I DARE to spite you
OR EVEN.. summon the strength to fight you.

Even worse... I couldn't remember if your worth the fight.

But when I finally did remember you
and the tunnel of pain you threw me through
I remember the truth about your sorry ass.

Of course your not worth fighting.
--You're not worth anything.

And even though your hurt me and I should take this time to slit your throat instead of telling you about how much you hurt me -- I WONT--
Because It's Your Loss Bitch.

Your Loss.