Remembering.

Shaking anxiety,
neurons firing rapid pace,
someone please calm me down,
before I blow this whole fucking house off into space.

Please oh please come nearer,
this life is so hard to concentrate upon,
I need flesh in my teeth my dear,
can't you see?
Why would anyone fear me?

Cause I'm just a dead man's abassador,
cold lips and violent kiss,
get the fuck out and close the door,
can't you see the tattos on my chest?
Can't you see the bodies on my floor?

A chastised child left to clean his crimson mess,
swallowing lego pieces like an addict popping oxies,
playground razor blades digging into my chest,
A tragic hero set out on a bloody biblical quest.
Dreading the life ahead.

Lost amid feary tales,
force fed consumption,
dragged through these flaming hoops,
screams of poetic speech disruption,
set asail amid descruction,
unvollunteering last hope.

Because I am the lost,
I am the weary,
I am the bloody bastard forsaken,
left behind the church eyes teary,
forgotten scars mistaken,
for surgical contemplations.

Because the sky has fallen,
this boy has cried wolf,
his mind has forgotten,
that this life is rotten,
left alone without a chance,
he stands,
remembering.