Secrets

I couldn't believe my ears
my voice coming from his throat
about us being one and the same
I refuse
i will not descend further into darkness
i will never let it happen
the horrors i've seen
the atrocities we've commited
they'll never be able to rest in peace
i refuse to give it all up unless i'm guaranteed his soul goes to hell with me

with the sword i stand with his and my life at line

with the moon our only witness

i remember

one couldnt fathom what its seen

the abomination i had seen

with swift rustle of the leaves beneath our feet and the clash of the metal

as our swords glint in the moonlit cove

as the thunderous boom of the gun i hold

i look up to see

my foe cluches his stomach and looks to me

but my eyes are his own

as he stumbles slowy towards me i feel the warmth of blood trickling down my arm

and i realise

my mind

my world

are one and the same

as reaches for me i collapse to my knees

tears slowly flow from my face

and i feel the smooth skin of his hand against my cheek

i look up to see him

his face so warm and inviting

as his lips meet mine i open my eyes...

...and stare at the cieling of my room....