Confused mind, Confused heart

You miss me
Though you don't seek me
You love me
Or do you just say that?
Is it my heart you crave?
Or just some attention
A way to kill some time
Or memories you shall cherish

When you promise to love me
Forever and always
Do you mean it?
Or will I be thrown in a corner
Like a forgotten pet
What I had considered to be
A blessing at first
Has turned out to be
A curse

Being with you is like a test
And no matter how hard I try
I don’t know the answers
To the strange way you love
I feel elapsed
I feel discarded
Though you swear that I’m not
But darling, I’m not so dense
Simply just broken

We’re not moving forward
We’re not moving backwards
Its like we’re standing still
And time ticks by nonetheless
My effort seems wasted
Your attention divided
But for I long will I delude myself
Into thinking you really care
For how long will I live in a world
Of fantasy
Lapping up your false promises
Your sincere pretences
Like my life’s depending on them

It does. Doesn’t it?
As there is no way to escape
Your sweet façade