The silent decision,
The subconscious lie,
The blurring of the truth,
Is what is making me cry.
You say our views matter,
But in the end,
They drift through one ear,
and out the other,
like a teenager.
You say you haven't decided,
But I can see it in your eyes,
The yearning for 'home.'
This.
Is.
Home.
For four years I have resided in this place,
Four years I have slept in that room,
And yet you want it to just waste away?
You say you haven't made your choice,
But when I say I don't want to go,
I am jumped on,
Like a lamb upon wolves.
You turn my words,
And spit them back at me,
Changing their very meaning,
And then say the meeting is done,
What were you wanting?
A unanimous agreement?
For me to stay silent?
Well words never fail me.
You say we will have the answer by Friday,
But tomorrow I am signing up for high school,
Guess who the joke is on.
You said I would be able,
To apply for something better,
But now since you have decided,
I have to say no.
You say you haven't decided,
That you two have not 'talked it out.'
But every shift in movement screams that you want to be home.
This!
Is!
Home!
Every time you refer to there as home,
I just want to scream,
Home is here,
Not there,
Home is here,
Not anywhere.
THIS IS HOME!
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Well my dad lost his job, so my dad calls a conference about what to do, to get our opinions on whether or not we are going to move back "home" or stay here. So all three of my siblings say that they want to go "home". I say my peace over how I want to stay and they freaking criticize me for not taking things seriously and that I needed to think about 'the good of the family', and how I was being a selfish brat. {Not exact wording}
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sorry forgot to give you the claps....
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I wish you didn't have to move and yes I said I WISH!!!! I don't care this time I just don't want you to move. I want you to come up here and live with us!!!!! I will ask them myself if you can come up here and stay while they move we will even keep Lacey with you.(NO matter what daddy says) I am probably going to hear the answer NO HOW CAN YOU EVEN ASK SUCH A THING ABOUT OUR DAUGHTER!!!! When they say that I may go off on them but I will hold off this time...... I just don't want you to move I hope you don't have to but by the way the things sound right now I don't think that you will be able to stay up here in NC. Best of luck with the moving thing and I don't see why they called you a selfish brat they are being SELFISH, I will give you something of mine for you to remember me so you will be able to remember the good times and don't EVER FORGET I am only a call and a type away and as soon as we(Zayna and I) get a learners permit we are coming down there to get you and take you back up here or go to Disney world for a week and a half!!!! WE WILL MISS U AND NEVER FORGET U REMEMBER THAT!!!!
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*hugs* I want to stay, but if I have to go, I have to go. I will miss all of you guys. I hope you guys don't forget me if I go, because I won't forget you guys.
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How could I forget you Kira???? You are my bff in the whole world!! We think a lot alike sometimes.... blonde or friends with blue hair and I vowed that if you moved we would go wherever you we will come and visit you for a whole week and take you away for that week to disneyworld... please don't move *crys*
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*hugs* We still haven't found anything out, my dad has two interviews on the phone today, one in Charlotte, one in Huntsville. (They both are phone interviews.) My dad says that if he gets the one in AL there is nothing stopping us from visiting up here in the summer. So that is good. I will still miss you guys like crazy.. Things happen when you stay in a place for five years, you let yourself get settled in, comfortable, only to have it taken away.
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I love the 7th stanza.
Great poem!
keep 'em coming
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