distorted visions.

pop pills.
eyes glaze.
face numb.
heart blank.
you've crippled my feelings so that all that I can do is wait around;
wait around for you to come back and fix me.
skin hot.
lips burn.
fingers move.
passionate kiss.
I replace you with the boy of the week,
the boy of my weak and fragile self esteem.
I know better than to think he'd fall for me.
i've turned into a dirty whore.
tip bottle.
down drink.
eyes water.
throat scalds.
I soothe my pain with the sensation of the liquor.
I won't be happy until i'm passed out on the bathroom floor,
begging for the vomit.
down on my knees is how you left me.
razor shines.
hand shakes.
blade stings.
blood flows.
I'm going to miss you until my body doubles over with pain,
and my heart breaks into shimmering peices on my bedroom floor.
just say you didnt want to leave me.

-lacerationxllama