I have a STD
From a young age rape
Thank you...ungrateful bastard
I carved my ex boyfriend's name
Into my ankle with a buck knife
To ease the emotional pain
I am not a whore
But I've had sex
With over forty people
Author notes
I have a lot of secrets, but those are the ones I decided to put into the open.
Rape happened when I was 5. He was 17. STD--->Genital herpes, Genital warts, HVP
There's a reason I said people and not men. Women are people too..
If I get judged for it, I don't really care...If you have questions, ask away...
A contest entry
- POST SECRET by Falling in Loveless.
1800 points, ended March 2, 12 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Already On My Favorites List by Ted E Bare.
400 points, ended October 17, 30 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Please tell me what you think
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Some of these secrets I didn't even know. You truly know by now that I have never or will never judge a person by the circumstances in their lives. I'm not running as you see. I want to thank you for your entry into the following contest: "Already On My Favorites."
Ted E
PS: Your entry has been blessed by the three wise clappers, but don't spend the whole nine points in one place(lol)!
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But I'm sure you can see why posting this is sometimes a scary thought...
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This poem was really heart-felt and sad. Hon, I think you have done an amazing job with this. I'm sorry you've been put through this. You are a wonderful poetess. You're an amazing photographer you're very caring and strong-willed and determined and last but by far not least you are the most caring woman I know. Keep up the excellent work. You just seem to keep amazing me with each new day. Congratulations on the HM Trophy though this deserved the gold. I look forward to reading many more from you.
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thanks...like i told you before i don't like secrets, and i'm tired of hiding my darkest ones.
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Wow. I dont think I have ever seen such a display of honesty. Thank you. It is refreshing. I hope that one day I can be as courageous as you!
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It's not exactly easy, but I'm at the point where I'm done trying to hide things and just don't care anymore what negative people think and if the person was already in my life and walks away, that's their own stupidity and shows they never cared about me in the first place...
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That is exacly the attitude I need to have in life. I care way to much about pleasing everyone and not enough about being honest with myself. you are an inspiration.
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I'm still like that when it comes to certain things, but getting secrets out in the open lets people who you really are and lets you know if they're really there for you...I still put others before myself, but I still make it known how I feel or what's going on...
I came to realize that if you spend time pleasing everyone else, you don't have time to please yourself nor do you have time to live life your own way... -
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Thank you. Really.
It might take me some time, but now I see that I can do it. I know this all in theory, but this makes it all the more real. -
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I'm 25. I'm not perfect, but I've found more happiness when I don't try to please the world and not myself. On top of that, you can't find yourself when you do it. It does take time, but it also takes saying no to people...
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I still don't think any less of you hon. You're still an amazing person and you shouldn't be hard on yourself for things you cannot change. Especially those that aren't your fault.
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But you know how I am and how I can be...Thanks babe!
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Wow, you have amazing courage to tell the world of AP such things and I admire that. I don't think I would ever have such courage. I'm terribly sorry to hear what you went through but know you aren't alone. I have a friend who was raped got pregnant with triplets, had them early, sent them to a baby sitter, they got pneumonia and died. So believe me worse can happen. Be thankful for your life even though not everything is perfect. God Bless you. Take care. and again thanks for sharing. Know you will never be judged by me.
Night Mistress 1
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thank you for your comment. that really sucks. sorry about what happened to your friend. i don't frown upon the things that have happened to me. they are the things that make me who i am...a stronger person that stands taller than ever.
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This is a great write. A great way to get it out. But I am thankful that I read this. I can connect to you in so many ways.
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Thank you...
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a phenomenal, in depth view into who you are as a person. it took a lot of courage to put something like that out there, and for it i admire your character! i want to say sorry that you had to go through this, but then again, sorry doesn't mean anything. so, i sympathize with this tragic action, and i hope to apply the lessons from your experience into my own life, and hopefully from there i will be able to share and spread it so as not to have others endure what you have already suffered... hopefully, that expresses my gratitude for your strength, and my resentment towards your predicament!!!
a fantastic job!
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thank you very much....
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I think you wrote evrything down you needed to say. The author notes probably struck me the most. I do agree, woman are people. And I definatly wont judge you for it. You've definatly showed A LOT of courage writing this down. And thankyou for sharing these secrets.
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Thank you for not judging. Unfortunately not everyone is that way...
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wow. I admire your bravery for putting that out here like that! we all have skeletons in our closets, I sure as hell know I do, but I'm not sure I could manage to do what you've done!!
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Source of therapy I guess. The more I get out, the better I feel. Thats how I am when I write...Thank you
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hmm =/ sad. I don't know what much else I can say Ive summed it up your poems are more like stories short stories. You've let everyone inside your soul.
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Thank you...I write about things I've experience. I don't think it's letting everyone in my soul. Only certain people make it that far...Thank you again for your comment!
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Army Girl
I'm here without any coffee yet I read your poem..
Oh it's so sad my friend I wish there were ample words to take away the deep sorrow you must feel.
But sometimes words can be inadequate.
When it's all you've got when the choices
few..
There is the soul's intuition..
and what goes around does come around.
Maybe this person will find the courage to have changed to be kinder sweeter gentle in spirit and heart. and you ...all the reasons to be free
so much more to be happy without this pain ever again.
Time can help do that so can good friends.
Love Peace,
campanaro
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thank you...
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hi my friend
Wow you decided to reveal a lot. I admire your courage but also sad for the things that happened to you. I wish you well in life and in the contest. Take care of yourself, Mark
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Thank you...Kind of scared...I know how some people are, and hoping things don't hit me that way...
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