God Damn Love Doctor.

somehow,
someway,
i want to suck up the contents of your mason jar,
&lick away the cancer from your intoxicated eyes.

[maybe maybe maybe,
i don't know,
but maybe,
you'll see me for who i am,
& not your sad, mistake of a vision of the perfect girl,
the ultimate fuck.]

empty promises lay in spattered messes at our feet,
like an acid-filled pipe dream,
we only reach for what we know we can't have,
what we know we won't live up to.

[if my body shrivels to your every will,
bends at your every sugary sweet word,
will that make me the better?]





&for one second,
one stupid, short milisecond,
i believed it,
every dead end i tried to tie up,
suddenly felt like a long & winding road.
&i felt your smooth body on mine,
at first, i felt like dancing in the beauty radiating from it,
but now i can only taste the lies in the back of my mouth.

[the further the fall,
the closer i could taste your heartbreak concussion.]

obviously,
girl+boy equals disaster.
if you would've never came around,
my battleship wouldn't have sunk,
&the puzzle pieces would've fit better.

[&somehow,
someway,
i want to eat up the time we spent like a cookie monster,
&spit out all of the bland appleseeds from your plastic apples,
maybe i'll forget you ever existed.]


&you know,
i couldn't have done it better myself,
poisoning my veins,
my arteries,
my stupid fucking heart with your love,
god damn love doctor.