And I Woke Up Too Soon

I have traveled the world over
Looking for that one thing
Each day passing making me older
And nothing is as it seems

I have lost a great part of me
And never will I get it back
But I will strive for Harmony
Hoping to get my life back on track

I remember the day I died
As though it was yesterday
Life resisted everything I tried
And now I am sad to say

I am a shell of a man
Part of what I used to be
I have had to discard my original plan
What was once my favorite part of me

I left him laying there
All alone, curled in a ball of pain
I had to get away, anywhere
I couldn't urge him to do the same

Two wrongs don't make a right
Or that's what they say
I've killed myself in a fight
And from myself, I've walked away

No one ever taught me
The right and the wrong things to do
With his past experience I see
And I will live my life as new

I have forgotten where to begin
And what to do when I get there
I know I am not absolved of sin
Starting from scratch, I should be bare

The worst thing I could do
Would be to let myself forget
The sorrows that I know
Along with the actions I regret

Keeping all these thoughts
In the front of my mind
I seek again what I once sought
Looking for my like kind

Sometimes I lose myself in my head
Washed away in memories of old
Hiding my hurt inside instead
Of showing it to the world to be told

I need to let it go, get over it
The past is over, think of the Now
or Tomorrow, i'm sick of this shit
I'll move on as soon as I know how

I walk a path I have never seen before
I embrace my fear and hold it close
My studies never brought me this type of lore
Not having a choice is what I fear the most

Understanding never comes before the doing
When dealing in things that are new
My mind is racing, thoughts are brewing
Trying to figure out what I am to do

It's not that I am eager to race to my end
Nor am I afraid of what will come
Yet if I move quickly I could start a trend
And everything I will start will never end up done

Careful thought and reasoning being
The path to my eventual success
Though doing and seeing
Is the difference between me and the rest

I blink my eyes a few times
And start walking into the dawn light
Eyes moving rapidly looking for signs
If I have to search till I lose my sight

It's the least I can do
For the man I used to be
His memory has made me new
And he can step back to see