Lost before I even Started

Sometimes you hear things, And you hope that they're true
Like that karma exists or we live again when we're through
But no matter the hope that swells or the rage that kills
Your left it the same place defeated and under the hill
Like when you see a person and feel like their the one
You picture the future happiness, the laughter, the fun
But then it dawns that your not on the same page
Well, your worthless and she's pefection locked in a cage
The bars dont stop her from roaming and having her fun
They're to keep her from you but your obliviously dumb
The feeling doesn't fade nor does your passion change
But on top the feeling of self doubt that leaves you deranged
If there was a chance well you'd never know it
Cos in the end you only think you'll just blow it
No matter the scene or the image of the way you have failed
And when you finally come to, oh no that ships already sailed
And the times when you thought that she'd only hide
For all you know she had the same feelings inside
Now you forty and alone with a dilusional future in your mind
Dont think for others or you'll lose something one of a kind