someone asks, if you found a magic lamp,
what would you wish for?
and i think:
1. i'd wish for a faster metabolism
so i could burn from a size five in hollister jeans
to a size one or three
and my stomach would flatten itself back out
without my fingers having to trace
all the ridges of my throat
(because really, i'm just a size or two away from being
beautiful and i imagine
beautiful people can't possibly hurt like i have)
2. i'd wish for fame,
the bright, sparkling kind that leads to fortune
and a thousand magazine covers
because marilyn's blood is in my veins
and i'm a good liar,
thus making me an even better actress
and maybe i think maybe if i had it all
i wouldn't regret
not being able to have what i wanted most for so long
and last,
3. i'd wish i had never met him,
so that when love came knocking at my door or
strolling past me in the mall or
slamming against me in the pits at shows
i wouldn't have the urge to hide or feel so awful,
i could just smile confidently and blow kisses at it
without feeling the fear burn through me--
--but mostly so
i could sleep again at night
and drive around my hometown without checking each passing car
to see if it's his
because every time, if it is or if it isn't
i die just a little bit more
inside.
Author notes
it's a shame genies don't exist
sup
Comments
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this made me think of the genie in weetzie bat!
wow, i loved the emotional range in this. it goes from the big picture down to your personal sadness and the flow between the two is great.
and i completely relate to the last wish. i always check cars to see if this certain person is in one of them.
as always, amazing poem!
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first, lemme just say, the kitten picture scares me.
second, youre beautiful all on your own, you dont need to try any harder.
third, i really wish i could infuse so much passion and feeling into my poetry. <3
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I feel a little bite of me dieing too. GREAT JOB
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