God?

God, can you hear me?
We haven't spoken in awhile.
At night I don't pray anymore,
When I hear your name, I don't smile.

How did I end up here?
Being who and what I am.
I thought you had more for me,
I'm sorry to let you down.

My being "special" was surely misread,
Because I know that I am not.
Mistake is my best freind.
I often wonder where I'll rot.

My soul plunges deeper into the dark,
My innocence a jaded memory.
On broken wings I've fallen,
Killed by my own curiosity.

The sins of the world tempt me, It won't be long now.
Can you please save me?
Someway, somehow?