Life is a Dream

Strange days are these
With fire in the sky
People long dead walking
No explainations as to why

The sun still rises
As it always has and will
A new day being born
Bringing with it a thrill

I stand on this hilltop
Completely covered by trees
The first hit of this joint
Blows away in the breeze

Completely lost in thought
As the hunter stalks near me
I am alerted of his presence
By some birds singing to me

I toss my treasure away
For riches are poor to the dead
My first reaction is to fight
Though I may be in over my head

Drenched in panic
I decide to make my last stand
Wanting to run or hide
But I alone understand

The beast that I run from
Is not from Reality
The faster I run
The harder it comes for me

A Demon, perhaps
Or an hallucination
The 'why' of it's existence
Open to interpretation

So this time I fight
Becoming beast-like myself
               in the mind not all is as it seems
                                                Giving into myself

                                                     Like lightning I strike
                                               For the heart or the throat
                                                     I don't see my enemy
                                              Yet on blood it shall choke

                                                          I strike my victim
                                                             Blow after blow
                                                    And through my anger
                                                    I stop myself too slow

                                                    Pain catches up to me
                                          As my heart beats slow down
                                                     Laying in front of me
                                            Is a dead ME on the ground

                                              Confusion washes over me
                                               As my heart stops beating
                                                        I have killed myself
                                             Or is this vision misleading

                                                        For a brief moment
                                                         The impact sets in
                                                   In a flood of memories
                                                   I can see my worst sin

                                                    Is this place I stand in
                                                  A small dungeon in Hell
                                                     Or am I drifting away
                                           From myself         I can't tell

                                  I could be asleep
                             Leaning back on a tree
                              Or safe back at home
                                  With my family

I blink my eyes
And look around for the spliff
Only moments have passed
There should be a whole joint left

I spot it not far off
So I reach down and grab it
The sounds of nature return
And I see a wolf stalking a rabbit

Through the mind-numbing haze

I sort through the facts

If the police arrive

I will have to run fast

I smoke what I have

And then light another

On top of murder

Weed is not a bother

Twenty to life

That's what my friend got

For defending himself

Against an Android, a robot

When I'm high as the sky

I look around to see

My body is still there

Laying next to me

My first rational thought

Since this whole thing began

I have to act quickly

Already forming a plan

Bury the body

And move on in haste

They don't know I'm dead yet

But I'll still hide, just in case

I stand up to run

Thinking of where to go

The world    shifts    around me

                              How           I don't know

                                        The peace of this place hits me

                                                   Settling into my bones

                                                  If this place is on Earth

                                               By mankind it is unknown

                                                           Calm as the pool

                                                               In front of me

                                              My whole being is tranquil

                                                     I never want to leave

                                                   In this place my nature

                                                        Shines like the sun

                                                         I wish to stay here

                                               Till my life's strife is done

                                                    Noon time approaches

                                                    I feel my hunger arise

                                          I pick some fruits and berries

                                         They are delicious, no suprise

                                                             I close my eyes

                                                      And think of my joys

                                    The sun filters through the leaves

                                           Animals make the only noise

                                                I wake at dawn and think

                                    Every Today brings it's Tomorrow

                                            A restful sleep brings peace

                                                A few hours from sorrow

                                                         In minutes it fades

                                          And becomes a faint memory

                                                   But the feeling persists

                                           Completely washing over me

                                                     I lay back and stretch

                                                   And soak up some sun

                                             After a few hours of dozing

                                                       I seek out some fun

                                                 As I dress I look around

                                                     And spot a few things

                                                        A bike is over there

                                           In the trees are some swings

                                                   Somewhere behind me

                                             Is a strange lake, it's warm

                                                Plus it constantly drizzles

                                                  Though it does no harm

                                             It's temperature is soothing

                                           Perfectly off-setting the wind

                                                    In my head I compose

                                                             A letter to send

                       It suddenly occurs to me

                   That something's out of place

                     I feel empty, hollow inside

                  I sense a drawnness in my face

A weakness where once energy flowed

My pulse throbbing in my veins

A tightness to my skin

Every movement causing pains

I know for a fact that I

Am no older than I was a day ago

But I can't seem to focus

My thoughts are coming slow

Again I experience a shifting

My newfound uneasiness fits well here

The scenery clashes with itself

I have the urge to drink beer

I push myself forward

Trying not to look around

I'm stumblng among the rubble

The rocks shifting the only sound

I do not feel tired

Which is strange in a way

I've been active since this morning

Practically all day

I instantly recognised

The mood of this place

It is part of my life

Always reflected on my face

The bleakness mirroring

The hole in my chest

The rubble reminiscent

Of my life till I rest

But I don't feel old now

Just like before

The shifting is part of it

There must be something more

I won't stop to think

Because stopping is sure death

Always creeping near me

Waiting for my last breath

So blindly I move forward

Knowing now what I seek

I hope I can find her

Before I grow too weak

My problem now is simpler

Though it seems a bit much

But I want to be near her

To feel her touch

My life      I must find her

                        Or perhaps I will die

                   Where would I look for her

                     I don't know, but I'll try

                    My need arises within me

                  Consuming me till I am sick

                And the shifting begins slowly

                Ending in a jungle, very thick

                                                   The heat here is humid

                                                     So I take off my shirt

                                         And think of what I need here

                                    I took a look around. It can't hurt

                                                     If I turn my back now

                                                          The pain will stay

                                                Burning through my soul

                                                   Eventually fading away

                                                     I start walking slowly

                                         Taking in the trees and leaves

                                               The thorns and burrs here

                               Make me wish I had better than jeans

                                                   She must not be far off

                                      Right now I feel awakened fresh

                               And I feel energy pulsing through me

                                            Juvination soaking my chest

                        I can tell by the sun's height

                         That I have traveled all day

                    Strange enough my vigor remains

                      I hope this feeling never fades

                      For a moment I sense something

             A smell so fulfilling it makes my blood warm

                            And in a flash is gone

            My breathing now labored, my chest feels torn

For a brief moment I know I felt

Her warmth flow into me through her caress

But she's moving away quickly

I can feel it in my chest

The jungle fades away

Into a kind of flatness

My eyes must be squinting

And then I plunge into blackness

I must be trapped in Loneliness

I can sense nothing here

I call to my heart, my life

And she is nowhere near

I feel myself thrashing

And tears rolling down my cheeks

And like this I am stuck

For what seems possibly weeks

Over and over I remember

All of the things that I do

I would try to listen to my heart

But how do I know if my heart is true

Minutes or hours

What difference does it make

When there is nothing but pain

For a long time with no break

I almost want it to end

But the pain says its not too late

To get everything back

Do I act, or do I wait

Nothing in my life could prepare

Me for what I am experiencing now

If there was any way possible to make it end

I truely wish I knew how

My throat is sore from sobbing

My mind is tattered

My body aches as though

I have been severely battered

And through all the torment

One consistant thought remains

If, when I get her back,

Will or can it ever be the same

                                                  That thought right there

                                         Is what torments me the most

                                                 So I'll do what I can and

                                                     Dance with her ghost

                                                Twisting with it naturally

                                  I cringe at the thought of letting go

                                The absence of emtional pain means

                                                  It's all over, this I know

                                       I'd rather spend Eternity in pain

                            Than ever think I can never be with her

                                  For now I will just accept this shell

                              Of a life, though I long to be together

                                                    With my heart, my life

                                       My dearest love, the half I need

                                          For most of my life I believed

                                  She could be substituted with weed

                                                                  I know now

                                                 That which will never be

                                           I just hope my life can go on

                                                       Without me, happily

                                                 I cry my last tear for her

                                                        And I put it in a jar

                           If I ever see her again, I won't cry again

                     But see the wall between us, keeping her far