I don't know if you still stalk through these pages of my life
Like thumbing through a book you used to know by heart...
I don't know all the places you've been
And I don't know where you are...
I can't say that this is easy for me, not even in the least
There are nights filled with darkness, tears and hating everything
Wishing you'd come back and say you're sorry
Sorry for floating in and out of my life like you control it
Like its fine for my life to revolve around whenever you're back
I've molded, shaped and tried to fit into your life too long babe...
Its time for you to make a change, make a true effort to fit in mine.
Reroute to Remain...REROUTE TO REMAIN
How many times have you said those three words to me?
How many times?
This time I'm telling you... reroute to remain
Its time for me to take control of this life
To live it the way I feel I need to
And I think its without you...
You helped make me who I am today
As fucked up as it may be... you did help
I'm greatful to have had the time we spend together...
and I'll never stop appreciating everything you mean to me
But babe I can't take being #2 anymore...
I can't keep waiting for you to come back
And I can't take every Heartbreak when you leave again.
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Honestly... I don't know where you are, and no way of contacting you for real... if you still check up on me here, I have a few things to send you.
And I'm serious, I can't take what you do to me anymore...
(2/9/09) how I will miss the man who this was intended for... he said he always stopped by to check up on me...I couldn't take him coming and being romantic and then leave again...
not like it matters....
Comments
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I too have felt that way recently, and for the last 7 years of a relationship, that isn't anymore. Sad as it is moving on to live life without that person is the only way to find your bliss. This was beautifully honest, and far to familiar. My heart goes out to you. I hope you find your true bliss in life! =)
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Number two isn't fair and you shouldn't ever have to be second best to anyone.
Love you
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