HPLAR - Memories That Fade

I don't remember your voice anymore
The memory of how you look has started
to fade
But Monique still gets quiet if I even
mention your name
Mommy's eyes still go kind of hollow
and your oldest - I never know what to think
I still don't know how to make it end
Still feel like I am living on the brink
of insanity
my life a calamity
of sorts
Did you ever feel like you were losing it
What did you do
Maybe that is how those altered states
of consciousness
became such a part of you
and I still have so many questions
I don't know how to make it end
Still feel like I am living on the brink
chaos my best friend
Don't remember your voice anymore
how you look has started to fade
but I can instantly picture that hospital room
and count the millions of tears shed that day
I've never watched anyone die
I have never felt such pain
I don't think I got to say good-bye
on the brink
chaos
insane
what did you feel
what did you see
what did you hear
did you fear
I'd like to think you found peace
That I will too
like to think I won't turn out
just like you
I don't know how to make it end
still feel like I'm living on the brink
of destruction
don't remember the sound of your voice
how you look has started to fade
I'd like to think you've found peace and been
set free
Like to think your legacy won't be the death of
me


JayLynn
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