Struggle

Struggle (acrostic)

S oothing my conscience with reassuring lies
T rying on ignorance and finding it my size
R endering ears shut to what I do not wish to hear
U nderstanding despite denial just what it is I fear
G limpses stolen and I catch my breath, as my heart begins to pound
G reedy, yet so needy, when you are not around
L oving you, my torso aches, yet it is a pleasant pain
E ven as anxieties rise, my desire does not wane.