The Friend With Benefits

I knew from the beginning,
There was a chance,
We would be nothing more than friends,
I never thought it would be true.

All those cuddles at night,
Kisses first thing in the morning,
The way you held me close,
I misread for something else.

We used to stay up late and chat,
We used to cuddle together and watch a film,
We used to hold each other close at night,
We used to seem so happy.

How could I be so stupid?
I got attached so quickly,
Thinking he cared for me,
The way I cared for him.

He was only meant to fill a gap,
But he filled another,
Without meaning too,
He found a way to make me smile.

I'd love to take everything back,
All those silly misunderstandings,
Just stick to my place,
To be the friend with benefits.

I suppose you've done this,
So that I don't get too attached,
Although, you never knew,
How attached I got.

I forgot how much it hurt,
Knowing that I would sleep alone every night,
Only get hugs, never cuddles,
And to have to keep to myself.

You were more to me than you knew,
It wasn't love,
But there was something,
Maybe it could have been...