To Late

I know it's to late to say I love you
I know it doesn't mean a thing
but I had to let you know
that I need you from the depths of my soul
I need you more than ever
because I've lost sight of my path
and on the way my humanity has slipped away

I don't know what to do I know I don't deserve
to be saved or to hold you anymore
but I can't feel anymore
when I watch the news, and movies,
I hear the screams of the pain
and anguish in my fellow man
but they don't phase me anymore
they mean nothing, falling on deaf ears

I close my eyes and there before me
rivers of blood wash out roads
buildings shatter and flesh burns
brother turns against brother
child against parent even my own hands
are covered blood and when I open my eyes
the evil in mans heart is reviled to me
through the evil in my own
and I know I love you is an empty sentiment
but out of whats left of my humanity I cry out to you

My soul cries out for its savior
but his sweet voice no longer calms
his hand no longer guides me through the valley
were a shadow has grown in my heart
and death hides in every thought my minds eye
sees Angels fall their wings washed in the blood of man and devil

my spirits to week to fight against
the thing I've tried to hold back for so long
but without your love and the lover of my soul
I can't stand any more because I've turned my back
on everything I once believed and everything I was
in the end I find myself enjoying all of what I see
and the thing that I've become can't wait to have control of me