Needles!

Life is nothing but problems

Everyone seems to be dying and leaving me!

And all I find in my room are NEEDLES

I hold them in my hand

Wondering if it'll hurt

Maybe I can succeed and die as well.

But then there is a chance I could miss and fail.

Everyone seems to be against me

I don't think anyone will care if I died.

Life seems so pointless.

Without someone to stand by my side.

But no one wants to be by me.

And no one really cares.

I always thought that I could fix everything.

Except my own life

I was ALWAYS there for people in need

But no one was there for me

I hold the needles close to my wrist

Wishing things could be different

But they can't cause you don't care anymore

I am going to die

Everyone seems to be too busy with their lives

To even care about mine

But they shouldn't have to care about my life

It's not there's. It's mine

Now I know what I am going to do

I have decided  to die

Because of you

You made it easier to do

Cause you hurt me

But I hurt you too

I am sorry

And now I must fix it

Now I am going to die

Don t call me and tell me you care

Cause I don t think you do

I think you just felt sorry for me

Cause LOVE is such a strong word

With it is strong feelings too

If you truly loved me

You wouldn't have not trusted me

So I think things would be better

If I ended this

If you are reading this

I know what you re thinking

“Don't do it.” Right??

But by now it's too late

My mind is made up

And you won't change it

My life is ending

To help you through yours

I remember everything you told me

How you really care

That you couldn't explain how much you liked me

But now it seems like you don't give a shit for me

I look at you talking with your friend(s)

Laughing and joking with them too

At times you'd look over at me then hurry to turn away

The needle is going deeper

And my eyes have gone blurry

From crying over you

The blood is rushing out of my wrist

The pain it sends through my arm

Then red blood seems like it s never going to stop

In one motion

I wipe the needle across my wrist

Across my veins

It took a second

But here comes the blood

Like a waterfall

Free falling to the ground

Never wanting to stop

I stick the needle back in and do it again

Now I have two slits in my wrist

The blood keeps on coming

Now my arm has gone numb

And I can no longer lift it

For the pain it'll bring

I close my eyes and start to cry harder

Cause I see you standing there

Shaking your head at me

And you keep repeating

The one phrase I hate

"I don t know why you do that.

You re just hurting yourself

And giving yourself scars."

I do it because I want to make you happy

But it seems that it'll never work

No matter what life brings you

I'll ALWAYS be there

Either in person or in your heart

And maybe I'll be your Guardian Angel

Watching you from above

I'm not going to tell you

What that is supposed to mean

Cause I think you already know

You just don't want it to be true

But it will come true

Whether you like it or not

That is my destiny

To die at a young age

Hell that's me!!

Thinking about everything I did

I know now that I shouldn't have dated you

If I could go back in time

And change one thing

That thing would be

ME

I would change my attitude

My depression, my life

But unfortunately I can't

Cause if I could

I already would have done it

Just to save you and me

I drop my head

And cry even harder

I look at my wrist then I look at the needle

All drenched in blood

And in the background I hear my song

"Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down

I take the needle once again

Dip it in my blood

And write a goodbye letter to you

((It might have been better in pen))

So here I am.

Writing to you

It's more of a poem

But it still has the most important thing of all in it

My goodbye to you

I'd never forget to say goodbye to you

I'd never be able to bear that

And neither would you

I know this may sound like its your fault

But its not

Its mine

Its my fault that you don't trust me

Its my fault you get angry

Its my fault for loving you

Its all my fault

Everything is my fault

Please don't say it isn't

Cause it is

And I can handle the truth

I am a big boy now

And I know what is good and bad for me

And what I have decided to do

IS right

And I have a feeling it's true

I know this is going to be hard to swallow

But at least I'll be remembered in the years to follow

Things are getting darker

And my arm feels like lead

I can't stay much longer

In fear that I'll be dead

Just a few things before I go

Tell all of my friends that I love them

And tell Christine, when she gets back

That I'll never forget her and I love her too

But most of all tell yourself

That I am sorry I did what I had to do

Tell yourself I went to a better place

To Heaven or to Hell, cause I'm a disgrace

But remember one thing that'll never change

That is my love for you

To the very end of the human race

And even beyond that

But I am dead now

And it is all thanks to those

NEEDLES

Goodbye baby and I love you..... Life is nothing but problems

Everyone seems to be dying and leaving me!

And all I find in my room are NEEDLES

I hold them in my hand

Wondering if it'll hurt

Maybe I can succeed and die as well.

But then there is a chance I could miss and fail.

Everyone seems to be against me

I don't think anyone will care if I died.

Life seems so pointless.

Without someone to stand by my side.

But no one wants to be by me.

And no one really cares.

I always thought that I could fix everything.

Except my own life

I was ALWAYS there for people in need

But no one was there for me

I hold the needles close to my wrist

Wishing things could be different

But they can't cause you don't care anymore

I am going to die

Everyone seems to be too busy with their lives

To even care about mine

But they shouldn't have to care about my life

It's not there's. It's mine

Now I know what I am going to do

I have decided  to die

Because of you

You made it easier to do

Cause you hurt me

But I hurt you too

I am sorry

And now I must fix it

Now I am going to die

Don t call me and tell me you care

Cause I don t think you do

I think you just felt sorry for me

Cause LOVE is such a strong word

With it is strong feelings too

If you truly loved me

You wouldn't have not trusted me

So I think things would be better

If I ended this

If you are reading this

I know what you re thinking

“Don't do it.” Right??

But by now it's too late

My mind is made up

And you won't change it

My life is ending

To help you through yours

I remember everything you told me

How you really care

That you couldn't explain how much you liked me

But now it seems like you don't give a shit for me

I look at you talking with your friend(s)

Laughing and joking with them too

At times you'd look over at me then hurry to turn away

The needle is going deeper

And my eyes have gone blurry

From crying over you

The blood is rushing out of my wrist

The pain it sends through my arm

Then red blood seems like it s never going to stop

In one motion

I wipe the needle across my wrist

Across my veins

It took a second

But here comes the blood

Like a waterfall

Free falling to the ground

Never wanting to stop

I stick the needle back in and do it again

Now I have two slits in my wrist

The blood keeps on coming

Now my arm has gone numb

And I can no longer lift it

For the pain it'll bring

I close my eyes and start to cry harder

Cause I see you standing there

Shaking your head at me

And you keep repeating

The one phrase I hate

"I don t know why you do that.

You re just hurting yourself

And giving yourself scars."

I do it because I want to make you happy

But it seems that it'll never work

No matter what life brings you

I'll ALWAYS be there

Either in person or in your heart

And maybe I'll be your Guardian Angel

Watching you from above

I'm not going to tell you

What that is supposed to mean

Cause I think you already know

You just don't want it to be true

But it will come true

Whether you like it or not

That is my destiny

To die at a young age

Hell that's me!!

Thinking about everything I did

I know now that I shouldn't have dated you

If I could go back in time

And change one thing

That thing would be

ME

I would change my attitude

My depression, my life

But unfortunately I can't

Cause if I could

I already would have done it

Just to save you and me

I drop my head

And cry even harder

I look at my wrist then I look at the needle

All drenched in blood

And in the background I hear my song

"Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down

I take the needle once again

Dip it in my blood

And write a goodbye letter to you

((It might have been better in pen))

So here I am.

Writing to you

It's more of a poem

But it still has the most important thing of all in it

My goodbye to you

I'd never forget to say goodbye to you

I'd never be able to bear that

And neither would you

I know this may sound like its your fault

But its not

Its mine

Its my fault that you don't trust me

Its my fault you get angry

Its my fault for loving you

Its all my fault

Everything is my fault

Please don't say it isn't

Cause it is

And I can handle the truth

I am a big boy now

And I know what is good and bad for me

And what I have decided to do

IS right

And I have a feeling it's true

I know this is going to be hard to swallow

But at least I'll be remembered in the years to follow

Things are getting darker

And my arm feels like lead

I can't stay much longer

In fear that I'll be dead

Just a few things before I go

Tell all of my friends that I love them

And tell Christine, when she gets back

That I'll never forget her and I love her too

But most of all tell yourself

That I am sorry I did what I had to do

Tell yourself I went to a better place

To Heaven or to Hell, cause I'm a disgrace

But remember one thing that'll never change

That is my love for you

To the very end of the human race

And even beyond that

But I am dead now

And it is all thanks to those

NEEDLES

Goodbye baby and I love you.....