used to

Me and my so-called independence
I've got this need that's so relentless
I must have gotten to used to you being around
Never dreamed I'd let myself down
Didn't think I'd miss you this much
I think I got used to your love
Now I have my freedom and so much more
But all I can do is stare out that opened door
I ain't sure why I'm calling so late
I just wanted to hear you are okay
It's been about a month now
Ain't seen nor heard from you even in this small town
The memory of the look you left with on your face
Honey, I don't think I've felt so disgraced
I swear in the wind I can hear your voice calling my name
Just my conscience driving me insane
I used to fear the thought of losing your love
Then I got used to being touched
I can't make you love me anymore if you don't
I can't make the heart feel something that it won't
The promises of forever I allowed you to break
Tossing a river upon our burning flames
Looking at the stars in the sky
I'm reminded of the ones in your eyes
I think God must have stole them for his own
Is that why they had grown so cold
Is my apology going to make it alright
These silent screams echo into the night
I must sound just like a fool
Trying not to cry to you
I just took for granted all I had and all you were
Can't believe I caused this hurt
You held on longer than I deserved to have
Didn't know it would hurt so bad
I think the point of this call
Is to hear, did leaving me hurt at all?