Money Stressesssssss!!!!

Lost in a sea of bills and payments,
I take on the life he left behind
While he's not gone yet.
Now I know why you have to be 18 before
You are an adult.
I take this load and all the terrors that
Go along with it.
It almost excites me to know that
I might be the one to help my family by
Organizing us and our finances.
I'm supposed to be the carefree high-schooler
Instead I am forced to be the grown up that
Grew up before her time.
It's the only thing I can do now.
Nothing would get done if I didn't.
As much as he says he's taking care of us,
He barely takes care of himself.
I don't want the pity because I've been doing this
All of my life.
I've always been a little bit more grown up than I was
Supposed to be.
There's really not a lot you can say to change what
Has to happen in order for me to survive.