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Twinkle little star.

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The room I remember was quite big,

I was in my favourite dress and

felt much better that day. The police

spoke to me like I was brave -

kept telling me I was a little star,

Mommy kept squeezing my hand.

The glass was one way, I couldn't see them

but I knew they were filming.

Childishly, as the child I was, I sang

a song -they said I could.

Twinkle little star, was what came to mind,

I guess because they kept saying that.

I was too young to be in court

to speak against that man,

too young to stand against his lies

as he pleaded innocence.

The only 'innocence' there was - was

mine and he took that away.

I sat in the room with bright coloured

toys - feeling too old to sit and play.


I was told to sit and talk, a friendly

police lady next to me -though she

wasn't dressed like one, but said she was.

I told her how he touched me, and didn't

stop when I told him to. I told her how

he grabbed me and left my wrists bruised.

I spoke quietly of threats, the times he told

me if I said a word I'd be punished. I told

her all I told my mommy, and she almost

started crying.

Upon leaving the room I was called

brave again, tears were in mommys

eyes, all of them seemed proud of me -

though I didn't want to have gone through

that to make someone feel proud when

I finally had the courage to tell.

We left and I got bought sweets - a

big ice cream as well, my mommy

was disappointed in herself - I think

she felt bad for it happening when she

didn't know, so I held her hand and told

her it would be alright soon.


Innocent, they said - though he wasn't

to come near us again. I was young,

but understood that he wasn't going to jail.

These memories he scarred me with,

were punishment for sins I didn't commit,

how is it fair that I get the sentence and

and he lives without repentance for

leaving this small child haunted.


Twinkle little star-burn bright, won't let

him put me out, I'm stronger than he is-

without a doubt. I'll fight through

the nightmares, learn to live and feel

alive, I'll keep my heart beating

and know that I survived.

Author notes

10- Write about abuse or a horrible event in your life. If you choose abuse and write about rape, please for my sake, do not get vivid in the description of it.

-Morgana raven.
I came back and forwards to this and looked at all the entries...but no.. im just gonna vent this again, i went for a different angle about what happened though and wrote from being in court. the very last bit I tried to make sound as childish as possible, like a little rhyme... either way, i am pretty proud of this write...
when gold the picture shown is me, yes when i was a kid from about 2-6 i had a fat face leave me alone =(

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  • untouched pages
    March 5

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    My dear the scars of our past hurt more now I think than the years past. I struggle with my past alot.. and this write as I read it made me feel as if I was reading back in time in my life, Its hard to go thro my dear.. thank you for this penning!


  • ilovemyemo
    March 2
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    that was really great!!! im sorry that happened to u i kinda know how u feel
    ~be well~


  • PoeticMadnesss
    March 2

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    such a sad poem =[ and had so much emotion and unfortunately truth to the world about it. brillianlty put together, and the rhyme at the end summed it up nicely. great job and good luck


  • Winged Unicorn
    March 2

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    This is so sad and the emotion and pain behind your words shows how hard it must be for children in this type of situation and how they must see it. Very well done. Thank you for sharing and good luck in the contest


  • couldbeworse
    March 2

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    The only 'innocence' there was - was

    mine and he took that away.

    I sat in the room with bright coloured

    toys - feeling too old to sit and play.

    this is so poignant and real. I can relate so much. great write and I am so sorry this happened to you little star. thanks for entering.

    • morgana raven Greeters member
      March 2
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      Thank you for your comments as always as i said I am not here much but I miss reading your poetry, If you send me links to ones you want read I can get back to yours whenever I am here and find the possible time =)


  • Emerald-Eyes
    February 23
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    He will answer one day, I don't doubt that. This is a brilliant piece. Very personal and written in a way that I think only someone who has suffered from this could write it. Well done, and congratulations on being able to write about it, people I know who have been through similar still have trouble thinking about it, 18 years on for some. Well done.
    xx

    • morgana raven Greeters member
      February 23
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      Alot fo people have so much trouble with this subject if they have suffered with it, and my strength goes to them. Thank you for reading


  • Forgotten Anomaly
    February 23

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    I think I may well cry... this is very sad and he should have gone to jail for a very long time for what he did... why are so few convicted? It is wonderfully writen and easy to read (as easy as this subject can be to read). Thank you for entering my contest and good luck.

    • morgana raven Greeters member
      February 23
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      Thank you very much for the comment, I was looking at a fair few of my poems to enter and I have a few on this topic... couldn't chose the one with most feeling because they are all... that way to me, I don't know why so few are convicted and it sickens me to be honest that society won't sort it out. Thank you very much for your comment, it is much appreciated.


  • psychomonkey
    February 20

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    This was very sad and im sorry that he didn't have to pay for what he did. I was also abused as a child and my abuser never paid for his crimes either. I know the pain, anger and frustration that comes with that. great write, thank you for entering


    • morgana raven Greeters member
      February 20
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      Thank you for your comment. I am sorry your abuser never paid either. your comment is much appreciated.

  • phoenixonfire
    February 1

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    I love the perspective here!! I wrote a poem from the perspective of watching someone being raped! This is really beautiful and I dont think many would look at rape this way! You describe the childs emotions and its innocence perfectly! Thanks for giving a fresh perspective!

    ~pri

    • morgana raven Greeters member
      February 2
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      Thanks for the comment, but this wasnt a perspective. .. this actually happened to me so I was writing it from memory =/


  • lyricist
    January 27

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    just because he got through the courts dosent mean wont answer for what he did. God sees everything. so his time will come. sad and sick how people are today. continue to stay strong


    • morgana raven Greeters member
      January 28
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      Thank you very! much for the comment on this piece, it is very much appreciated.


  • Fr33BirdFaLLin
    January 27

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    That was great and sad /
    I love the end in italics
    And you should be proud of this write :-)
    *claps*


  • ciara12
    January 27

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    :O

    This was very good but it was so sad and i feel terrible about what happened to you! How could something happen to such a girl like you that seems so sweet and innocent???? that is insane and he sould have been convicted..... wow.. i would've been so mad if i were your mom...


    on the other hand this was very beautiful and it makes me think of all the times i had experiences like that and kept them to myself...

    "Innocent, they said - though he wasn't
    to come near us again. I was young,
    but understood that he wasn't going to jail.
    These memories he scarred me with,
    were punishment for sins I didn't commit,
    how is it fair that I get the sentence and
    and he lives without repentance for
    leaving this small child haunted." This is my favorite of them all beccause it says how you have to live with the memory and he justs gets off and gets to move on with his life like it was nothing.. that's so sad.... GREAT WRITE!!

    • morgana raven Greeters member
      January 27
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      Thank you very much for the comment. Just wondering what you meant by 'me think of all the times i had experiences like that and kept them to myself' Did something like this happen and you didnt say?


  • gypsywitch0187
    January 27
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    wow this is extremely good, i'm sorry that happened to you

  • couldbeworse
    January 26
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    These memories he scarred me with,
    were punishment for sins I didn't commit,
    how is it fair that I get the sentence and
    and he lives without repentance for
    leaving this small child haunted.

    what a horrible thing to happen to such a beautiful child. I am so sorry for your hurt and pain. No one deserves that. they should have put his ass in jail forever. great, powerful, emotiomal write. well done sista.

  • SilencedSoul3
    January 26

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    Wow sorry for what you had to go through to inspire this piece of writing, but it is well done! Wow! I am in awe by you!


  • TheSpiralGenerator
    January 26

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    This really reached out and grabbed a bit of my soul. We've pretty much been through the same thing, or so it seems by reading this. The person who raped me when I was 7 was too young to go to jail (I think he was 14 or 15, not sure). So all they did to him was make him go to a correction center. My mom tried so hard to get him behind bars, but the law wasn't having it. It's so stupid how people get away with it!

    Anyways before I go on a rant or something... This was very well written, although very sad. I'm so sorry that you've had to go through this. I'd say it gets better with time, but the memories never truly fade at all.

    Thanks for entering and good luck.

    • morgana raven Greeters member
      January 26
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      I was five, he was probably about 29 or somethin I don't remember but it would have been around that age, he did it to my sister as well... but.. . the law is shit. Ive seen him a few times as well... and oh god wanting to just .. well im sure you understand. You said not to go into detail so i tried to write about the situation from a different angle. I'm sorry you had to deal with what you did as well

      • TheSpiralGenerator
        January 26
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        Oh, when I see the person who did it to me (sadly he's in my family, too, so I do see him every now and then) I just want to kill him.

        I just didn't want the detail about how the person does it, because being through it myself, I just don't want the memories to come back.

        • morgana raven Greeters member
          January 26
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          I know how you feel. Well I can at least grasp the feeling better than someone who hasn't experienced abuse. Thing I learnt in life - majority of people = tapped, completly tapped and we have to suffer because of it >:


  • fake-or-real-smile
    January 26

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    Wow....you've actually taken my breath away :| and that's a rarity.

    I read your author notes and there is only 3words for this: amazing and mind blowing.

    You were too young to go through any of that and he was soooo nasty :@ he should have gone to jail, but hun you were unbelievably brave for telling your Mum and sitting in that room telling someone you didn't even know.

    I can't believe how well you can put things into words.

    xxxxxxxxxxx


  • broken-colours
    January 26

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    aw, sweetheart, this is so sad. and unfair.
    and no you didn't have a fat face. silly. you're adorable.

    this was incredible. heart-breaking.
    good luck in the contest you entered.
    :]


    • morgana raven Greeters member
      January 26
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      haha thank you and thank you so much for the comment as well, it is really much appreciated

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