I'm Sorry

I’m sorry.

For what I have seen,
For what I have heard.
For what I have done,
For what I have told.

For what I have told.
The lies and the truths,
All jumbled in my words.
Am I being honest?
Or am I being absurd?
Sometimes even I can’t tell,
What’s clear and what’s blurred.
Is it a whole lie,
Or just a simple reword?

For what I have seen,
You said not to look.
But you can’t control the internet,
Only my books.
There’s no turning back,
Not anymore.
I enjoy what I see,
I see nothing I abhor.

For what I have heard,
Curse words flying everywhere.
I only half-listen,
I don’t really care.
You of course do,
But to that I say whatever.
You ask when I will stop,
Not now and not ever.

For what I have done,
Been mean and had hurt.
Physically and mentally,
My strength I tried to exert.

I’m sorry for the things
That I’ll never tell you.
Do you feel that way?
Will you apologize too?