Ruins

After fourteen years of strong sturdy walls, they began to cave in.
I was scared, thinking that you were like the rest of them
But after almost five years, it scares me more that you weren’t.
Such a different philosophy, you were just different from the beginning
You changed me completely, and now, I don’t know who I am without you
You never gave up on me like the rest of them, you never judged me for the way I looked
And you have [almost] always been there for me
But I need to get over it
It’s just high school, and our life together is slowly coming to an end
I can’t allow myself to pretend that we will grow up and live happily ever after
You’ve always known that haven’t you?
But somehow I have convinced you that you need me
Or maybe you just like to have me around because I always come back
Like a stray pet, in need of comfort and shelter
Whenever you open your doors, I am there waiting for you to take me in, and love me
We are just friends, that’s all we have ever been…and you’ve known that…
Why couldn’t you tell me that
Instead of bringing me to this fantasy world I have been living in for so long
Instead of dragging me along behind you, picking me up every once in a while
The walls have crumbled around me, and I’m standing in ruins.
Please
Just leave me alone,
Don’t tell me that we are supposed to be together
Because we both know
That it’s not true.