Lost within the self
this drug taking over the mind,
as I become a person that I don't know.
Only thoughts I have
are upon quenching this burning hunger
that is never satisfied.
So willing to let go
of everything around me,
those I love,
the morals that I have,
just to feel that sensation again
and block out the world around me.
Willing to do just about anything
to get to it,
not caring anymore
of my own health or safety.
For it doesn't matter,
only to find that sensation
which will take me away
to the fantasy world that it does bring.
As it slowly destroys me inside,
and yet I care not of it
for nothing truly matters when I am on it.
Lowering myself
into a dark world that it does bring,
losing the true essence of who I am
just to feel a moment of happiness again.
But it is only a moment,
and it takes more and more
for me to find that feeling again.
Till finally
I am trapped within its power
and there is no way that I can get out.
It takes control of me
and there is nothing I can do
to get away from it.
Lost within this world of addiction,
drowning within its dark abyss,
letting it slowly kill me from within.
Author notes
Words from a recovering alcoholic. Finally I have pulled myself out of its abyss.
A contest entry
- Addiction and Co-Dependance by piccola.
900 points, ended January 28, 2009, 22 entries
Silver trophy winner
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Your poem has a strong impact and I relate to every word! I'm so glad you got clean. Me too and I'm never going back to that dark place. Thanks for sharing.
Peace Georgia
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wow...i actually felt the emotions that you were trying to portray about what it is like to be an addict. well done. thanks for sharing. good luck in the contest.
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Excellent
You did a fabulous job in describing addiction. Your poem is excellent and I wouldn't change a thing.
Yes there is the feeling of chasing that delusional happiness that the drugs once surely gave all of us addicts until will crossed that invisible line into addiction. Oh how it takes control over us just like you said. Just beautifully written. Thank you for sharing and best wishes in the contest.
Blessings,
Kelle Marie
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So willing to let go
of everything around me,
those I love,
the morals that I have,
just to feel that sensation again
and block out the world around me.
So much truth in these words and so well written. Thank you for your entry. -
Wow what a dark write
Addiction is like carrying around a crutch. With it you can lead your life normal. I applaud the people that can recover and get rid of that crutch. And relize they can have a normal life with out there addiction. Wonderfully written sweety. I know is hard to write of our lifes. I applaud you LISA
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