Trying to hold back the rain
To silence the thunderous pain
Of feeling the calm winds of change
Will never chase all the terror away
Flee from the beast at your heels
The chill from it's breath that you feel
The panic of prey trapped on the wheel
Forever begging with God for a deal
No solace waits in the light
No rest rides the wings of the night
There's no safe place you can hide
From a shadow that's born from inside
Tears are worth less than the price
Of the effort it takes them to cry
Fear is the killer of minds
Your freedom the sacrifice
Just let me rest, let me go
Slowly crawling out of this hole
In this fight, so alone
In the lines on your face, witness the toll
Breaking the chains and facing the cold
Mirror images of carnival sideshows
But I'm the only blade that can cut to the bone
Of this lie
So far from home
I'm killing fear in my soul
Truth changes colors within every eye
From every perspective
To accept or deny
The black rain falls from the bluest skies
Behind beautiful masks
Tortured victims will hide
And I'm ok, so you think, see my smile
Painted with the expert brush of denial
To feel like a jester in the presence of princes
You hide your afflictions for lack of redemption
The spirit recoils, recants and tenses
Unspeakable shame in the day no one mentions
Here is the lock that prays for a key
The unfinished puzzle seeking the misplaced piece
The lonely cage that seeks only to be free
Of the ball and chain that dreams of release
Just let me rest, let me go
Slowly crawling out of this hole
In this fight, so alone
In the lines on your face, witness the toll
Breaking the chains and facing the cold
Mirror images of carnival sideshows
But I'm the only blade that can cut to the bone
Of this lie
So far from home
I'm killing fear in my soul
Author notes
This piece is for all those suffering from Panic disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, agorophobia and nervous illness...a lonely place indeed.
A contest entry
- loneliness by katie-jo.
550 points, ended February 16, 78 entries
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speachless
This touched me...Have bad anxiety. I give you two applause ^^
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Thanks much, it is a horrible affliction to be sure. Such strength is needed even to live with it much less conquer it. Stay strong!
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I love the depth of this poem. You addressed some topics that are hard to understand and even harder to deal with. I agree with what Stephen said.
I can't think of anything else that he left out that needs saying, so thanks for entering and sharing and having the guts to write this
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Thanks much for your time and consideration.It is always an honor to hear the thoughts of another artist on a piece of work and that they found value and insight within it. Thanks again.
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I think this is a very good poem. It is full of depth and emotion and has a really good flow to it, that takes the reader on a very deep jouney.
The piece touches on some very hard subjects but I think you approached this with compassion and maturity.
I think I enjoyed the first stanza the most, the motif of natural happening, I think was almost a subtle message that these dire illnesses/feelings(depression, fear, anixety) it almost ass natural as nature.
Weather that was ment or not, thats how I read it and I thought that was really skillful
Overall I thought this was a great poem!
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Thanks so mcuh for your time and insightful analysis. The subject is indeed a hard one, especially to deal with in RL, so crippling. Thanks again for your thoughtful insights.
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