I self- destructed my way
To an early grave
Never letting on, how I really felt
Every lasting drop
Vaporized through clouded lungs and a sinking heart
Even though the happiness and
Rememberance nearly kills me, but there's no way of
Getting out of here
Everyday is neverending
Thank God someday, I'll be out of here, but I'm
Still tied to a life that
Bleeds cancer through me
Everytime I trip or fall
Telling myself, it's never just a dream
Thinking this really isn't anything
Even somewhat worth trying but
Running away isn't painful enough for me
