Scarred

A brush of coldness surrounds me as I stare upon your frame
I tried avoiding this altercation..
Intead it hit me like a frieght train...

This bothers the heck out of me.. I scream without making a sound...
I have no control over anything...
I'm floating..my feet no longer on the ground

My longing to be free from this.. nothing short of a future addiction..
Looking far beyond whats there..
Straight into my own eyes .. beautiful affliction

I run away.. that's what I do best.. I flee
My pain is unbearable.. I bled outside in...
You cut me too deep

I turn and glance..you return a hateful glare...
You look hollow, deserted..heartless...
A look I'm use to...you simply don't care...

Now I stand cold in this rain..
Hurting far beyond myself..
This is a different pain...

I turn as I try to block out it all..
Flash backs haunt me.. I become weak..
I trip.. stumble..then fall...

...To my knees..I sit there and just weep
This is beginning to feel alot better..
I've held on to a lot...I'm reminded..it was never mine to keep

So I let go..my heart I begin to pour..
I release anger..and hate..
I cry until I can't anymore...

I want to be able to move on..to forget what you are..
But I can't .. I'm afraid to..
..You left me..I'm permantely SCARRED