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Choking back the words,
Constricting my tongue and my throat,
holding back what I want to say,
what I need you to hear.
Bound and gagged, and sinking to depression.

In my head I see you now;
your eyes, the most gorgeous,
your face, handmade by the gods themselves.
Such beauty tears me up
knowing I lost you, threw it all away;
left you, hating me.
Crying, and sinking to depression.

But then I see you,
my world brightens,
if only for a second or two.
The darkness is purged;
only passion remains.
Then you drive away,
your smile goes out and
extinguishes the light,
and I'm instantly crushed again.
Overwhelmed with the feelings of
loneliness, sorrow, and unused love.
Crushed, I sink into depression.

Give me a hand, a hug, a smile;
I'd kill for a fucking kiss.
I'd kill for your hand once more.
Dying, stuck at the bottom,
my thoughts always bring me back to you.

Once you loved me,
called me yours.
Once, your were proud to be mine,
as addicted as I was.
Once upon a time,
locked together with you; happy.
But now, all I have are the broken memories of holding you,
memories of soft kisses,
and memories of whispered nothings.
All I have are visions of the look in your eyes,
the look that told me - showed me - I wasn't alone.
Haunted, I lay down.

Look in my eyes; it's killing me.
Unable to laugh,
unable to cry,
lost in limbo;
worse than death, worse than a lonesome life.
Crumbling from within,
the victim of my own cruelty and selfishness,
the ruler of an empty kingdom.
Simply put, I'm ruined.
Derelict, I ask your for your hand.