Let's play a game!
It's called 'Do what I say!'
Now, don't tell Mummy, or Daddy... They'll tell you off!
It's bedtime, see? You have to be a good girl.
Now, hold this for me.
There, that's better! Lie down.
Look, I know it's not nice,
But it'll make me happy!
I won't tell Mummy you've been bad then!
Sit here, that's it!
Now, rub here... how's that? Nice?
OK, now. Don't cry, it's not that bad!
Just don't say anything, they'll shout at you.
I'll buy you your favourite sweets tomorrow!
No, I promise!
We'll play again later.
No, don't tell, they won't believe you.
I'm only trying to keep you out of trouble!
What will you say anyway?
I need a wash.
You need to go downstairs,
and pretend nothing happened.
No, you don't have to go to bed now.
Look, it's OK, you don't need to shake like that!
What do you mean, 'What's the rules?'
If you don't play, I'll be angry!
I told you, they won't believe you.
They'll shout and tell you off for being bad.
They won't love you anymore
We won't play it lots, just sometimes.
We'll stand up this time.
It won't hurt again, it'll be better this time.
It's OK, don't cry! No! Look at me! Be strong!
No one will hear, so stop shouting!
You won't tell Mummy, She'll tell you off!
You know it! You've been bad! She won't love you.
You can have your sweets again.
After next time.
You don't have to be scared of me.
Give me a kiss!
No, Harder!
See, that wasn't so bad, was it?
Let's have another one.
No? You're not playing by the rules!
You know what happens if you don't!
Don't you like making me happy?
Now, KISS me.
Hold me here.
That's it! Now I feel good.
What about you? Yes?
That's better, you're learning.
No more crying.
Soon you'll be able to play the game,
And I won't even need to tell you how.
Not so bad now, is it?
We understand each other.
It'll be our little secret.
You like it when I touch you there?
Yes, I'll still buy you those sweets.
You've been a good girl today.
Now, remember what I said,
About it being our little secret?
No??
Well, remember what I said about Mummy shouting?
Thought you would!
Yes, I know I've said you've been good,
But, Daddy doesn't like this game,
And neither does Mummy.
You like your old uncle to be happy now,
Don't you?
So it'll be our little secret.
Author notes
I'm so sorry if this hurts anyone. Causes distress. Or is too long.
(Before you judge Me, or the way this was written, check out the other two parts. Just a suggestion.)
Part 2, http://allpoetry.com/poem/4977805
Part 3, http://allpoetry.com/poem/4977849
(09/11/03-18)
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Comments
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Yes, that did hurt, but in a disinfecting sort of way.
My heart goes out to you. No child should ever have to go through that and yet so many do... it just makes me sick.
My uncle was my abuser too, but he wasn't old. He was 19 when he started and 22 when we finally moved out of his basement aparment. And with him it wasn't a game; he called it "doing as I was told because he was in charge". There was never bribery or rewards, just threats to hurt me worse if I told.
I'm so so sorry for what he did to you.
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ok, i cant stop crying!!! i am so so so so so sorry that you have had to go through this.
I can relate to this on many levels but not all. I was also sexually abused/raped etc but where your uncle was an plain fuked up pedophile who would tell you he loved you etc, mine was stlightly different....sadistic. But it is basicly the same principle if that makes sense. The fear, and the hurt, the betrayl is exactly the same. I wish that there was something i could do to make this better, i am so sorry.
If you ever need to to talk hun i am here for you. I think we can really relate to eachother on many levels.
Thank you so much for entering my contest...im gonna read your other two now
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all the part of piece it excellent written and very touching and beautiful express ... thanks
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ok, what i'm about to say I really don't mean to be harsh or offend you or anything, i will try and explain what i mean when i say it...
i really found this poem like really disgusting, and I don't mean that its a bad write or anything, its an amazing write. the fact that the conversation was just so raw, and something that unfortunately does happen a lot, just sent shivers down my spine. i find it horrible that anyone could ever do that to a child, but you really captured the destruction of innocence and the disgust that is involved with this type of crime...
the fact that you can incite such emotion into your reader really shows that this is a powerful write with the ability to leave a lasting effect, i will definitely be reading the following parts to it..
i hope you understood what i meant by disgusting though, its a good thing (if you know what i mean) because of how well you've been able to write this. Hope i made myself clear and didnt offend! I think this is a really good write...
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