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Was It Ever There? (Or Just Reflected In My Stare)

How many hundreds of thousands of minutes,
how many millions of seconds since?

and still my brain bleeds.

I guess I never had the faith to try;
belligerence and ambivalence
were my only tourist’s guide,
so many things walked on by
as I sat and felt my planet die.

I knew if I was asked, I couldn’t lie,
I knew then that I could only sit in silence

and still my brain needs.

How much strength does it really take
to always watch things walk away?
Have you ever really seen me flinch?
Truth be told, the setting of my jaw is fake
and I can never look people in the eye.

I struggle to understand all my reasons,
I struggle to lay the past to rest

and still my brain grieves.

Author notes


Contest: She Always Was A Delicate Disaster: Prompt Chosen -
25. Yesterday - What are your regrets, or the things you think about about the past, that you just can't help imagine being different. Perhaps it's losing your virginity too young, not telling someone you loved them, missing out on a job opportunity. Whatever it is, tell me about it and what you'd do differently if you could.


Prompt Quote: "If only I could undo the things I didn't do I would"

I've been plagued by 'what if's' with regards to my past an awful a lot, more so than is healthy, though to tell the truth, with me that's just the nature of the beast, it pretty much has always been this way with me.

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  • xxRainbowDawnxx
    March 4

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    This is wonderful! I can relate so much to your sentiments and the first couple of stanzas especially to me, saw a different side to your writing. Without angst, just... Sorrow and regret, which you don't often show in a softer tone, but it's really beautiful.


  • sheltered
    February 4

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    great title to begin with
    first two lines impacted
    flowed flawless throughout
    and the end
    was really strong too
    good stuff


    • Glasyalabolas
      April 1
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      Many thanks.

      Been such a long time since, but still it's very clear.

      (sorry for the comment delay)

  • Axe Tither Mizzens
    January 27
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    Interesting rhythym. Nice write. Good luck.


  • hotchocolate gold member
    January 21

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    Another great one from you here hon and I wish you luck in the contest hon

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