"Gone Forever"

When you looked into my eyes

My heart

.S.t.o.p.p.e.d.

My body grew  s~~h~~a~~k~~y
My smile was
          w /
              \ e \
                      / a /
                            \ k
My eyes  "w’a’t’e’r’e’d"  up

Your smile left me brea  th  l  ess
Your eyes left me u-n-s-t-a-b-l-e
Your presence
                r/      t/        l/      \d
                    a\        t\      e   
                                        my memory
Your voice f..l...oo…d…e….d my consciousness

It’s been a year, four months, a week, and a day.

Remembering the last time I saw you
Hurts in some way
Feels brilliant in others
You are the radiation of my day

Speaking your name chokes me
The feeling continues and spins
The wretched tearing of my stretched heart

The fragile beating keeps
ThUMp.  ThUMP.  THUMPing.

You never stayed “Gone Forever”
Like I kept singing
And lied
              Through the whole song.