It took so long for you to point us to a salvation,
&such a short time for me to point out all of its imperfections.
It was such a breakdown of beauty,
a metaphorical crumble of the roots in my ever-winding soul,
that led to my thread breaking,
my sanity loosening,
&my heart beating like a motherfucking suicide mission.
A bend that only led to a break,
a twitch that led to a shake,
only caused this girl to fall faster,
do you think it's in her head?
do you think it's all in her fucking head now?
[The twists & cracks in the concrete used to save me in the dark,
now I only fall deeper, slipping on the imbalanced parts]
Crashing tides of those stupid nights I relied on,
the heels of my feet never touching the ground, kissing your face,
it was all such a beautiful world to me,
until it all left without me, like a circus that never wanted to encompass me.
[My biggest mistake was letting my mind think it could only work on you,
but your biggest mistake was letting me fucking believe it.]
Your words were the only thing that got me by,
I realized that they weren't my anti-drug when your voice got harsher,
your image was no longer visible as love-happy,
&my face no longer filled with smile lines, only depression creases.
[the songs that used to be my escape, only skip when it gets to your favorite line,
&the cds that you made, crumble between my feeble fingertips.]
I will sit in the corner of my shower, pressing my knees to my chest,
crying in the midst of the pouring water, drenching my face,
thinking of all of the ways that you killed our love,
or that I may had already killed it & just decided to ignore it.
[the infinite glow between the stars above my head,
no longer shine with my lovestruck eyes,
they only crush the blinding twinkle that refuses to go away.]
Watching the water paint itself on the shower walls,
I will draw lines on my legs with the razor in my hand,
thinking that I, myself, am lightning just scratching the sky,
&am still alone to search for something to swallow me whole.
Author notes
Me&my boyfriend broke up; alas, this is the ramblings of my crazy, fucked up mind right now.
shit-tastic.
Playlist:
August 28th 3:30 AM by: Automatic Loveletter.
Three Cheers For Five Years by: Mayday Parade.
Gifts & Curses by: Yellowcard.
Love Remains The Same by: Gavin Rossdale.
Light On by: David Cook.
option: depression
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wow. intense vidid imagry great work
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[My biggest mistake was letting my mind think it could only work on you,
but your biggest mistake was letting me fucking believe it.]
Your words were the only thing that got me by,
I realized that they weren't my anti-drug when your voice got harsher,
your image was no longer visible as love-happy,
&my face no longer filled with smile lines, only depression creases.
Love this.!! -
This is beautiful. I could feel the emotion. Great write.
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the way you ended this is incredible. and the entire poem is just BAM, in your face.
i love that quality of this.
great job
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Thank god. Somebody can write a badass poem about what this feels like. Its beyond shit-tastic love. I loved this.
I will sit in the corner of my shower, pressing my knees to my chest,
crying in the midst of the pouring water, drenching my face,
thinking of all of the ways that you killed our love,
or that I may had already killed it & just decided to ignore it.
[the infinite glow between the stars above my head,
no longer shine with my lovestruck eyes,
they only crush the blinding twinkle that refuses to go away.]
In all honest i found myself copy and pasting the things i liked and then i realized i had the whole poem reprinted. You're amazing!
Peace and Loveeee
B
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Wow...very intense images..cathartic...
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