Venom

I once knew a girl
She was lost and full of venom
Fatally poisonous venom
It slowly consumed her
She knew it was killing her
She didn’t understand it
She cried for help
She tried to get it out
By gutting it out of her
She couldn't get rid of it
She tried and tried
Until the blood couldn't stop spilling
She searched and searched for her cure
To pump this venom out of her veins

Do you love me?
She asks the stranger
Sure, he replies, as he rapes her mind, body and soul
Will you be my saviour?
She cries
Don't worry, you'll be fine
He mumbles as he zips his flier,
and walks out the door
What are you doing? Where are you going? What am I doing?
She screams as she reunites with her friend,
Watching the crimson water of life pour out of her

Someone, please help me
She weeps to herself
I'm deteriorating, I don't have much time left

She comes to me,
And I see an exquisitely beautiful,
caring, intelligent, passionate, artistic, unique being
I adored her for all that she was
The real her that was hiding behind the poison
I loved her dearly
She opened herself to me
With open arms full of love and a shoulder to cry on
And with her passionate, disturbing poetry of the
Fatal thoughts that were eating her up inside
This was my opportunity to help her overcome her sickness


But I didn't see this opportunity---
But wait, didn't I go through this at some point in my life?
Didn't I remember what it was like to feel alone and sick?
What it felt like to suffer every day
And my constant desire to escape this life?
Why couldn't I be understanding?
Why the couldn't I relate?
Couldn’t I see she was suffering?
I had forgotten my dark past, and selfishly put it behind me,
Not realizing that it probably happened for a reason,
So that I could help a dying girl
I had her medicine
But I was blind                                     
                                                                               
A beautiful being was at a high risk of
being permanently erased from this
plane of existence
                                                                                                           
Just thought you should know,
Ghazal was found dead tonight.
She jumped off a 17 story building.
A friend tells me.
It rings constantly in my head
Like a broken record.

An unknown devil with no face                               
had pulled her                                             
final trigger                 
It's like my eyes were nailed shut
To be suddenly ripped open
With blood gushing every where
With crimson tears streaming down my face
Her venom gushing out of my eyes
~Gisselle

PS-
Sweetheart,
If only you could see
Your mother, sister, S and I
Sobbing hysterically and shaking with pain
at your ceremony of death
Sick with your absence
If only you could see