Wanting

She's in the bath with her back aganist the wall,
leaning her head beside the shelf.
Siently crying to herself.
Thinking about drowning in the water.
She knows she lost another person she loved,
and she knows that it's her own fault this time.
While she crys to herself,
her sister comes into the bathroom to brush her teeth.
With the shower curtin pulled across her sister doesn't know she is crying behind it,
nor does she know how much pain she is in.
Before her sister leaves she says something that makes me laugh,
then I'm left alone to cry some more.
But I do know one thing,
my death won't be tonight.

Author notes

This is actually true, i was in the bath last night well crying oviously and my sister did need to brush her teeth, so what i'm trying to get at here is even tho my sister didn't know i was crying that little thing she said that made me laugh made it worth everything.