Lost

I'm lost in this world
It is said i fear comitment
It's true
It is said i will never be happy
Atleast not while tied down
Who knows
I'm afraid
I don't know what to do
I don't know how to deal
I believe i love u
I'm confused
I want to marry u
But it is said i wont last
It is said that marriage is not for me
I want it to be a lie
But i feel it may not be
I'm waiting on more info
I'm waiting for more answers
I've always imagined myself a mother
Hardly a wife
Weird i know
I'm lost in my thoughts
I have no direction
I'm following u on this journey
In hope of truth
I want to love u
I feel i love u
I'm not sure what love is anymore
This is in no way goodbye
I'm just lost
Lost in myself
My mind is dangerous
And it is taking over
I fear comitment
But i fear being alone
I fear getting comfortable too
These are just my thoughts
Spilling across the floor
They are not meant to hurt
Just to be there
I love u...