Tangled thoughts and mixed up feelings.
Confused and finding myself very lost.
I struggle to make sense of your words.
Look at what it takes, the cost.
It's just like before, this.
Such taking on your part.
What do you give in return?
Chaos and guilt, ripping of my heart?
I look at you and remember
How we used to be at the start.
Now things are supremely different,
We've drifted so terribly far apart.
All your wicked promises,
All these doubts of mine.
Can I honestly trust them?
Have they changed over time?
I don't question that I want you,
Want you back inside my life.
However I don't want to hurt those
Around me just to be your wife.
This turbulance inside me,
This twirling in my mind
Makes me fear and hurt again,
But to whom is my heart inclined?
His caring words and support,
Or your chemistry and passion?
How can I choose between,
Two men in this fashion?
You say life has ended for you,
Ended now that I'm gone.
Yet I remind you today,
Without me you'll get along.
But if I give myself
All over again to you,
Will I lose what I've gained,
This new heart that I grew?
This swirling turbulance
Of emotions and thoughts deep
Are shaking my world again.
I'm losing myself and my sleep.
I don't think that I can do this,
Don't think I can make the decision?
How am I supposed to hurt one,
Because of my hearts division?
Author notes
This is very heartfelt and based off of my life right now.
ShiningNShadows
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Comments
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'have they changed over time' -
it's so hard to know, and so often the answer is no ... but sometimes we have to take a leap of faith.
thanks for entering
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wow. this really made me think a lot about one of my friends and what's going on with her right now. thanks for sharing.
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i like it
very nicely written
adn i think that the way that you started was strong
thank you
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