The Complex

I can never really get this little complex brain of mine to think right.
I can’t seem to decide today on whether I love you as I always have,
Or if that one little lie that changed everything will make me hate you forever.
It only shows that you are like the rest of those guys that you so willingly put down,
Each boyfriend followed by the other you hated as a ‘supportive’ best friend.
But in all reality you were calling out the very flaws I now realize you too have.
Dear boy how do I explain to you every little word within my head?
I was so disappointed that you would do what you did and deny everything.
I was so hurt that you would say all these things to me and I’d believe it,
Only to find out you were just like those from my crappy past.
I love you and you know this because I have told you god knows how many times.
But after that day when you said those words I knew deep down were just lies,
I wasn’t too sure if I could believe every word you said to me after.
You and I both know I cannot hate you today or forever,
That I have already decided I will love you.
But I think you should know as well that a part of me no longer trusts you.
My dear best friend,
I love you truly to the depth,
But the moment you start accusing those of the future,
Cheaters and liars all alike,
I will no longer listen to you and just shut you out,
Because now I know that you are like those of my past.