Death/Effect

Leave me now your unholy judgement.
Please find me the one to easily tourment.
It casts a shadow so dark and so vast.
I'll hold my tounge as long as it lasts.
Cut my throat, itll be the greatest thing you'll do.
I thought i was fine but now i'am through.
We dont have much time, not much to tell.
So much you know, now crawl back in your shell.
You have no right to be here die some place else.
I held you so high but you were still below myself.
You decide your own fate nothing left to chance.
When you leave dont give me a second glance.
I dont want you, never did.
The only excuse i have is that i was a kid.
You've lost so much and so have I.
Miles away you wont look me in the eye.
I wish this was the end but its not.
Im so easily dismissable and easily forgot.
Dead silence rings in my ears.
Echoes of the past have left nothing to hear.
Your voice is burning in my brain as if you were here.
I dont understand this life i cant anymore.
Even though it was me you chose it is you i adore.
Without you is very strange.
With everything else how could this change?
The only good thing in this life no gone.
Man, i wish this medication was running strong.
Everyday is a constant battle.
My aching nerves leave me rattled.
This heart runs like a frieight train.
Grind my teeth because of this constant strain.
I am broken in two and i dont need it.
maybe if i write it down people might read it.
Iam drowning and trying to gasp for air.
you were standing on my head making sure i stayed there.
Friends are truly unimportant when your on the brink of insanity
I am sure i needed them to help me back into reality.
Self serving motherf-u-c-k-ers i hope you rott in hell.
I guess i can see you all when i am well.
I cant stand your egotistical conversations.
Look what ive got going on! your wearing on my patience.
You werent there when i needed you.
So that gives me more of a right to leave you
Someday ill be far away from here, thank god.
You all are by far the worst friends ive ever had.