scared in searching

So our forever is postponed.
We are now single and free,
but we arn't complete now,
not like you and me.

I don't know who i am,
I have lost all that i know,
I lost our love too,
my mind is starting to go,

But you still want me,
and you still care,
although when i needed you,
You weren't there.

Who knows where we shall end up,
together again or stay apart,
I know it will take some time,
before we consider our hearts.

You told me you would wait,
wait for me to come home,
i wish that time wasn't needed,
and i wasn't so alone.

I want so much to find myself,
I wish i was back in your arms,
I wish i had never lost myself,
And that i was safe from harm.

I love you more than people realise,
no matter how bad we are,
together we just became hateful,
but maybe this can be fixed from afar.

I know its not soon in coming,
and i need to learn to be alone,
i need to cope with my new life,
Before new seeds with you are sown.

I just hate waiting,
i hate the heartache involved,
I hate missing you,
i wish it was just solved.

I wish you could find me,
and bring me back to you,
everything is so scary in the dark,
with nothing around that i knew.

So i sit here missing you,
and  trying to grasp,
everything thats happening,
and to accept what is now the past.