Im Prooving Self Confidence

                    Either you were rejected by a friend, or you were embarrassed of what you looked like, or had a bad experience in your life that frightened you and conditioned you to think lowly of yourself. Once you find out what this exact issue is, you can begin to work on curing it and treating it.

                For the longest time, I was embarrassed of who I USED to be in the past. In highschool, I was a nerd with acne that could not get laid to save his life. Now this has changed, but whenever I would meet an old school-mate, I would get all those feelings of shame coming back to me again. I was ASHAMED of the person I was.


                        It took me very long to realize the exact emotion I was feeling because I was ignoring it. All I felt was my old self confidence coming back and haunting me, telling me that “I am not good enough” and constantly reminding me of the type of unwanted, weird, creepy nerd that I used to be in highschool.


                          A lot of people hold on to their past, but I am suggest otherwise. Although it is important to remember where you came from, you should always be striving forward and aiming to WHERE YOU WILL GO TO. This world simply doesn’t have time to look back on the past. It’s always about tomorrow.



                              All my friends from highschool commented on how good I look now, or how much I’ve changed… yet all I could focus on was the past. I was focusing on the fact that I was a ‘weird creepy nerd’ who was constantly rejected by girls, time and time again. This would fill my body up with fear, anxiety and destroy every bit of confidence I had. It would set my mind back in the old days of when I was unattractive.


                                  Most men remember a point in their lives where a woman rejected them. Every time you think about asking a girl out, that rejection subconsciously plays over and over in your head and fills you up with fear.


                              I remember a time when the highschool cheerleader shot me down when asking her to dance with me. For the next few years after that, every time before asking a girl out on a date, that bad experience of being rejected by the cheerleader kept playing back in my head, over and over again to the point where it would paralyze me with fear.


                            It wasn’t until I consciously became aware of it, that I was able to change it. You see, it is like a parasite in the dark, feeding off your self confidence, eating it away. It isn’t until you shed the light on it and fight it off that you will ever regain your confidence.