This silence makes more noise than
All "silences" are supposed to.
There's something more behind this tense,
Cloudy air I'm breathing in.
It sticks to my skin, makes me
Itch everywhere. (everywhere.)
I'm trapped within my own body,
Nothing to do to stop my heart
From racing; beating, screaming
So loud that I swear everyone can hear it.
I think they're watching me start to
Fall apart, again.
(You're so weak...)
[I watch myself from the corner of my room. I slump down, knees curled close to my chest.
No control.
No stopping.
No savior.
Nobody knows.
Thoughts come in short bursts.
How long does it take to regain lost blood?
Will the weakness ever go away?
Is this my last time, will I give in again?
Am I going to stop this time?
Can I stop this time?
Too many unanswerable questions.]
My fingers twitch, I shudder,
I breathe slower.
I'm relieved, nothing can hurt me.
And even though my fingers are so,
So cold, everything feels warm.
Warmth is in my veins again, the
Blood circulating faster and
Faster
And
Faster
And...
I think I'm better now.
I'll open my lips and speak words
I wouldn't have dared to, because
Being fake is, by far,
The easiest way to prove that
Nothing is wrong with me.
I'll smile just so you don't know.
Am I even trying anymore?
Author notes
The city splits,
And within,
We find
Memories.
♥
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i enjoyed this piece quite well. i thought it was very heartfelt and emotional. keep up the good work and good luck in the contest!
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I can definitely relate to this. It is really beautiful and is just so different. You used a lot of emotion in this and I just love it.
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this is definitely an accurate chronicle of the experience, at least I know I can definitely relate to the way youve described it. I like the sort of deliberate, straight forward tone youve used hear. You let the act and the experience speak for itself.
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Very well written I like this one a great deal. It says alot and yet leaves the imagination free to roam where the cutting takes you. Thank you for entering
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Very good write, well done. Very emotional. I loved it. Thank you for entering my contest and good luck.
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