Free write

It kills me that you're not ashamed
of what you're doing here
trying to fit in with others
that you know nothing about

Seeing isn't believing
believing is seeing
you're suffering is self inflicted
stop playing like its someone else's fault

watch the show believe you me
your willful ignorance is all but a scam
you pretend to be so special
but do you really believe that to be

I want that show you pretend to know
know I know just breathe

silence young blood
let it settle
take it slow like heroin
or swallow long and dry

you think your faith is strong
based on chapel visits and hymnals sang
play me a sonnet for old times sake
you wolf in wolf's clothing
praying you are but sheep
being led to slaughter by blind men

soothing touches you wish you had
that voice rings almost clear now
when you think you knew
but you forgot you threw it away

checking on forgotten glances
hoping for that light to shine
maybe you forgot that time
when you had it all but chose not to see

forgive me for my bashing
my belittling and rationalizing
take it with a grain of sand
I'm pissed that you don't see

encryption laid between the emotions
or maybe it's the other way around
symbolism is shown to lie
what were you thinking just now

faithfulness hidden in darkened minds
light through the eyes
like a stake through the heart
fight for the right to see through the clouds

Feel the binds that hold you
made of satin not of steel
search through the razor wire
your scars are not hidden by cloth

look deep in the mirror
who is it that you see
your distorted reflection shows
pain anger lust and pleasure
is that me next to you for eternity

he says to love you no matter what
I do because the pastor scares me
his ideas are different from my own
no more holy men here to console me

take from me the anger I seek
shower in ice and cover in fog
once forgotten twice removed
see the issues in you construed

between these lines you see nothing
everything resides in the heart
tear it from the doll next door
and see the crimson tears start to run

flowing slightly out of tune
that melody finished with the finest note
guitar strings reverberating unfinished songs
sing to me the brightest star

laughing out loud you see the future
no one can see that you start to falter
the butterflies startled and flew away
dolls staring faithfully at grains inside

sands and hours the glass counts on
waves of a notorious gleam
silence deafens the finest ears
darkness lights the forgotten path

slates wiped clean
I'm done I'm through
no more shaming upon blaming
I'm free of this current

moaning and grinding
I miss that seduction
that basement of consciousness
touches of fire burn faithfully
I'm finally set running the concert

treating this like rain
find that shelter that you seek
reach for the stars you know are unattainable
forgive me for forgetting to set fire to my wings

ascend till you light aflame
I wish I could reach you
I've got one broken hand and a wing in the fire
my halo showing nicks
and my skin cracked with dirt

kiss me now and deep
touch me like salve to my wounds
silence and passion made for each other
tears to accompany I'm sure

indecent exposure through time elapsed
sin tasted upon the most innocent lips
express what you want through words and actions
but you know i know
whats hidden beneath