At the age of 49

At the age of 49
I never thought that I could have
What I had wanted all my life
A family and someone to love me
I had given up on ever getting that

Everyone always said that
When the time was right I would know
Who I was meant to be with
I always shook my head and smiled
Never responding because I never believed
What they said was true
Until the day I met you

Someone once told me that I would know
When the time was right
To tell the one you love
That you do love them

Don’t say it until you actually mean it
Not just with your body
But with your heart, mind and soul

I always said it too soon
I was always afraid to be alone
I never truly meant it
Until I said it to you

My mother said once that you never know for sure
If you really want children
Until you find out that you’re having one
I never believed her
So I ignored her words

When the day came
That I found out I was going to be a mother
I was so happy that I cried for hours
I then knew that I had been wrong all along and my mother right
As always

I guess I just had to know that you’d be the one that I was doing this with
To actually want it

Sitting here on this hospital bed
With you by my side
Holding our twins
One boy
And one girl
I know that everything I hold dear is right here with me
And everything that I wanted all my life
Is right here
In this room

A family and someone to love me

I guess that I hadn’t given up too soon