You were always my worst obsession.
We give the word “love” murderous connotations when we rot
from the inside. I was always a submissive porcelain doll & sometimes
late at night some pale piece of my sanity would crack & I’d b.l.e.e.d
out how I really felt [about you].
We turned Cinderella’s carriage into a hearse. We are a “true love”
fantasy complete with flashbacks & breakdowns.
If you cared about more than [fucking me], would you do [this] to me?
You’re killing me & my sanity shell each time your mood shifts,
temper flares, & I’m back where I started with a razorblade at my
wrists. I carved the word W H O R E into my skin like so many
scarlet letters when I realized you made me yours, during one of
those 3 a.m. phone calls when you criticized me for not [giving up]
more. Every time you pull me down into your bed & say you
care about me [between the sheets], I lie still, shut up, & bite my tongue
[because I know how you love to taste my blood].
You’re “happily ever after”’s bane just like we’re becoming each
other’s. But just like an “ever after” could never not have you in it,
I (really) need you just to survive.
& even under this starless sky when all my dreams & regrets sink like
needles into my skin, I could never give you up. I’m hooked on you
like cutting, drugs, & Ana come back with a vengeance and a pretty face.
Love, I want you to know that while I was driving home at
11 p.m. after seeing you [touch me] & shuddering away all that
[should never have] happened, I was still believing in fairy X tales &
crossing sacred lines while trying to figure out why you mean so
damn much to me. I’d shed my clothes & my innocence for you,
and whispers in the dark aside I should stop .right.now. before this
gets [any less] cryptic. One thing you can’t deny is we make a great
piece of dirty.pretty, complete with our scars, your second thoughts,
and all my s h a t t e r e d hearts.
And honey... the sad thing is that I wouldn’t take back a word I’ve
said, except maybe “I’m sorry”
[because we both know that it’s just words]
♥
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A contest entry
- "...I Can't Give You What You Need" by Dancing Marionette.
750 points, ended January 17, 16 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
thoughts?
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Stunning.
I dont know what else to say...this is amazing. -
"I was always a submissive porcelain doll & sometimes late at night some pale piece of my sanity would crack & I’d b.l.e.e.d
out how I really felt [about you]." Opened up a flood of emotions. I adore this poem. Great write. Xds-gX
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We give the word “love” murderous connotations when we rot
from the inside. I was always a submissive porcelain doll & sometimes
late at night some pale piece of my sanity would crack & I’d b.l.e.e.d
out how I really felt [about you].
Ah-mazing! -
I love this, it is just flat out beautifully twisted and thats what makes it oh so charming doll. This is something that anyone and everyone can relate to in their own way, woo hoo you got gold in the contest! Congrats to you! Its well deserved, this was an amazing piece of poetry, i'm definatly bookmarking it love.
♥
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Wow!!
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Wow, this was simply amazing! My favorite part was: "You’re “happily ever after”’s bane just like we’re becoming each
other’s. But just like an “ever after” could never not have you in it,
I (really) need you just to survive.
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Oh wow. A beautiful, heart-breaking write. This is a great write. I feel the emotions flood me while reading it. Keep up the great writing.
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This is amazing; I'm envious because I can't write like that. Although the situation is awful, it does make a good piece of writing. I definitely felt the emotion in this piece.
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I was looking around on AP and found your name. I decided to check out your poetry, and i love it! You have a great depth of insight in you. Your emotions lie deep. I love people like you!
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I love this poem it is amazing!
"& even under this starless sky when all my dreams & regrets sink like
needles into my skin, I could never give you up. I’m hooked on you
like cutting, drugs, & Ana come back with a vengeance and a pretty face."
This is my favorite part, great write keep it up!
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I LOVE this. It's amazing && I can sooo feel the emotions coming out of here. I can relate too much. The way you write && the descriptions are gorgeous && so perfectly dirty pretty.
keep writing dollface
x
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this is EXACTLY what i wanted,
it was wonderful.
thank you sooo much for entering
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I am a whore for Dirty Pretty. It's one of my favorite types of poetry to read and I have a few butchered attempts of my own that I have posted but what I really appreciate about this was the content of the piece. You didn't focus so heavy handed on the punctuation & whatnot but instead put forth a quality piece of poetry rife with emotion.
Nicely done.
Thanks for sharing.
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Awww this is AMAZING.
I feel every word of it and it breaks my heart so much.
I hope you can learn to feel again
I'll never be over him either.
Admitting it kills me more than anything. I so wish I could hate him, but that's something I can't do.
No matter how hard I try. -
Amazing
this poem is pretty much awesome. the way you used your words, was amazing. you're very talented and should keep writing more.
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Awww this breaks my heart sweetie.
love you and the writes you enter, they are always so strong and heartfelt! x loves you
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