Wonder

I wonder what it would be like If i never said Yes
I dont understand this mess
I feel as if im no longer wanted or needed
I wonder if you really love me like you say you do
Is it just to keep me hanging around with you
Or is it true
I dont know whatever it is
I gotta hold on you
I cant let you go
All my thoughts are you & I
Complicating as this may seem
I dont feel im no longer the one you need
Difficult to see we're not really meant to be
Tears fall from my eyes
Fears surrounding my life
The thought of me & you ending
Thats a horrible pain to feel
All I want to know is
Should I stay or should I go?
All this pain I go through is because of you
Am I doing too much?
I feel Im being pushed away from it all
I want to be done hurting
I wonder it would be like if I never met you
or is it I wonder what it would be like in my life
COMPLETELY without you?