To one who holds himself back...

I wake in a field of dreams
The sight of clouds above
meet my waiting eyes

Sadness fills my heart
I don't want to see these clouds
I want to see you

Looking beside me
An imprint in the grass
memories strain my thoughts

A Brush of Desires
Your eyes fill mine
then emptiness invades

An Untouched Opportunity
Wasted through fears
and destroyed by Hopes

I lie back down
To the sight of clouds
Puffs of forgotten Wants

Your gone from here
Here by my side
where I want you to be

Flashes of Light
meet my teary eyes
and remind me over again

Nothing to kill the pain
Only a deep sadness
An ever expanding Emptiness

All feelings fall inward
imploding to Nothingness
never to return

I held myself back
I hold Myself away
I held what I want back

A missed chance
Never to return
Time for goodbye

I stare at this void
Inside Myself
and in this field

I remember it all
and I will never forget
Everything that transpired

I will hold this Nothing
that means everything
To one who holds himself back...