A.J. (explicit content)

here's your fucking knife asshole
here you go
now cut yourself bleed please i need
i fucking hate you it never ends
obsession constant repression
it's pressing on my sanity
fulfilling fantasy
and you blame me
fuck yeah i do drugs
i pop a pill for every time you
made cry and i do a line for every time
i wanted to die
don't look at me bitch
i'm not alright
guess what fucker
i no longer sleep at night
it doesn't bother you though
you sleep just fine beside her
don't you! don't you!
while i'm taking bottles of
trazadone tring to find my bed
there always thoughts of you
racing through my head
a billion memories
attacking like the monsters under
my bed
i remember everything you said
like that one time you said i was better
off dead
or how about the night you were at my
house and you asked for sex and i told you no
how about that night asshole when you
couldn't get any ass you picked up
and left me
God i fucking loved you
and you knew it too didn't you??
and then when i finally decided to fuck you
you came right back
just like you always did
fucking admit for me
you didn't give a shit
you never loved me
2 years and all you wanted
was to fuck me
how about that bullshit
come on motherfucker
your in the confessional
it's time the world knew about you
i'm swear to tell the truth
the whole truth and nothing
but the truth
you cussed me
screamed at me
hit me
shoved me against the wall
you fucked me
lied and said you loved me
left me alone and scared
told me you hated me
slapped me
sprang my wrist
and gave me all the blame
for the scars that line you arm
when i was the most harmed
because i love you anyways
and i'm without you today
but here's the truth
can you keep a secret
you never going to get away!
motherfucker!
i won't let you leave me again
because i need you
need to see you bleed
but wait on more thing i've got to say
are you ready for the climax
i bet you do you fucking sex addict
lets reminisces shall we?
we're on my bed
and your huffing air duster AGAIN
begging for sex AGAIN
and i said no NO NO
you can't have me take it all away
next i know all i felt was pain
so much pain for a moment
you went insane
and you gave me the blame
for being raped by
the man i loved
do you know what that feels like
do you have a fucking clue NO
BITCH
no you don't
you never will
but i love you still
and i just needed a chance
to tell you how i feel
and tell you how
you dug a giant how into my chest
where my heart should be
and when i have a chance
I'll cut a hole in your chest too
so we can be together
happy
empty
love
and your still bleeding
you're going to die
just like i did
when you left me behind
don't worry i'll be fine
but you won't dear
have no fear
remember i'll always be here